BACHELORETTE alum Blake Horstmann claimed he felt suicidal after getting bullied for his appearance on season six of Bachelor In Paradise.
The former reality star, 31, said he was “the lowest he’s ever been” while dealing with backlash from the ABC spin-off in 2019.
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Blake first appeared on Becca Kufrin’s season of The Bachelorette and later went on Bachelor In Paradise, before quitting five weeks later.
The TV star said he felt like “killing himself” after facing a torrent of online abuse as new episodes came out each week.
He said on David Yontef’s Behind The Velvet Rope podcast: “When the show was airing, it was just felt like every Monday and Tuesday night for four weeks, five weeks, I was just getting my d**k kicked in.
“I felt like I was just getting punched in the gut over and over and over.”
Blake added: “I remember calling a producer at one point and I was like, ‘Mercy.’ I was like, ‘Edit me out of the rest of the show. I’m going to freaking kill myself.’
“And they helped me a little bit towards the end, but I was just like, ‘I can’t handle this anymore.’
“Like every single week getting bullied, I’m getting kicked and there’s nothing, you know?”
Discussing his mental health, Blake said: “I slowly came out of it, took a long time and I tell people like, it doesn’t happen over night.”
He added: “Like you’re not all of a sudden going to be better. You know, I still have bad days. I remember one thing in particular, it was probably towards the end of the season and I was the lowest I’ve ever been.”
Blake said things started to get better when he left the season.
He said: “I wasn’t sure if I wanted to live anymore, but after that they [the trolls] started… I guess, honestly, not only do people hate, but they’ll like move on and hate somebody else pretty fast.
“You know what I mean? So that started to happen a little bit and I could see a light at the end of the tunnel.”
Blake was painted as a villain from the moment he arrived on the beach in Mexico, as it emerged he had already hooked up with two of the women there.
He slept with Caelynn Miller-Keyes and Kristina Schulman at Stagecoach festival before filming and visited Hannah Godwin in her hometown.
Caelynn wrestled with telling the other contestants about their past romance, admitting that she felt like his “dirty secret.”
The former Miss North Carolina USA eventually confronted Blake and accused him of trying to “silence” her.
Blake later made headlines when he shared the private texts between him and Caelynn in an attempt to prove that their relationship was casual.
You’re not alone
SUICIDE is the 10th leading cause of death in the US, according to the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention Leading Causes of Death Report from 2018.
There were “more than two and half times as many suicides” in the US than there were homicides, according to the report.
For people ages 10 and 34, suicide was the “second leading cause of death” and the fourth for individuals ages 35 to 54.
Suicide is a vital health concern in the U.S. It affects all genders, races and ages.
This is why The-Sun.com launched the You’re Not Alone campaign.
The campaign calls on readers to discuss their mental health issues with their family, friends and health professionals. We can all pitch in to help out others who may be suffering and help save lives.
If you are struggling to cope, you are not alone. There are many free and confidential programs in the US aimed to help those who are struggling with their mental health.
If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health problems, these organizations are here to provide support:
He is not the first star of the Bachelor franchise to speak out about their mental health in the wake of trolling.
Former Bachelorette Rachel Lindsay recently took a break from social media after facing death threats and bullying.
Meanwhile, Victoria Larson from the current season of The Bachelor said she has faced bullying after being portrayed as the villain.
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